It's Was So Complicated~
My SPM Result~
Is Not So Good~
And I Make Everyone Disappoint On Me~
I Am So Sorry~
I Really Try My Best On It~
Sorry~
I Know What I Say Now~
You Guys Will Not Listen On It~
So I Juz Keep Quiet~
And Stay In My Room~
I Dont Wan To Know Anything~
I Am So Tired~
Daddy Juz Non-Stop Scolding~
Even Myself Also Dont Wan That Result~
Which Today Is A Dream~
But No~
This Is Reality~
I Cant Change Anything Happened Today~
Stop Take Me To Compare Wif Other~!!!!
I Am I~!!!!!
I Know I Am Not Smart Like Brother And Sister~!!!
But STOP Compare Me Wif Them~!!!!!!!
I Really Hav Try MyBest On It~!!!!!
Dad~
I Know I Always Make You Disappointed~
But This Time I Will Juz Keep Quiet~
And Let You Say Whatever You Wan~
Coz Even Myself Also Not Satisfied On My Own Result~
So I Juz Keep Quiet~
Sorry Dad~
Really Sorry About It~
I Really Wan To Cry When I Received My Result~
But I Control Myself Not To Cry In School~
After Arrive Home~
Daddy Ask Me Go Into Computer Room~
Then Start His Scolding~
I Hav Nothing To Say~
But I Will Not Cry Infront Daddy~
I Juz Keep Quiet~
Then I Back To My Room~
I Start To Ask Myself~
Why I Can Get This Kind Of Result~
I Am So Stress~
I Cry~
But Soon~
I Know Crying Cant Change Anything~
I Juz Hav To Face The Reality~
My Ambition~
This Time~
Really Hav To Give Up My Ambition~
GIVE UP~!!!!
Coz I Cant Achieve It~!!!!
Becoz Of My Result~
T.T
Now I Hav No Idea What I Wan To Study~
My Mind Is Empty~
And I Dont Know What I Wan~
Sister Ask Me Choose What I Like~
But I Really Dont Know~
I Hav No Direction To Go~
I Am Loss In The Middle~
What Should I Do Now~
>,<
Crying Is Useless~
So I Must Stop Crying~
Coz Crying Cant Change Anything~
Juz Will Waste Tears~
March 2009
